i wish the wrens would tour. i miss them.

i'm feeling better today, i don't really know how or why but i am. i know that gram would be mad to see us being sad anyway, and it makes me mad at myself and feel selfish when i cry so i'm trying not to. yesterday was really hard for some reason, and i kept breaking down but today i feel more calm somehow. in other news, this past weekend we saw a baby bear. i spotted the darling, only about 20 feet from our car in the woods as we drove to find this elusive tower some dude built that is somehow getting high speed satellite internet from space and broadcasting it into the woods. it exists, and it works. i don't know how. anyway, the bear was cute. it looked exactly like this picture. i wonder where it's mother is.

i skipped week two. i made her upper legs too big, but oh well.
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my lunch sort of blew. i combined mexican food with middle eastern. by the way, thanks everybody for your nice words and !@#$%. i'm doing laundry. tonight is art class. i got my city sticker. i should be doing work. maybe i will.

i just went to jewel and almost passed out. i bought weird things, nothing i needed. indian food. a bell pepper. i don't know. other stuff too. i can't remember. today is july 15th, which is supposed to be my favorite day of the year. maybe i should eat lunch.

i'm going to get my herr did now.

yeah the class was fun, just because it was fun to be drawing again, and seeing how the page keeps looking more and more like the actual model the longer you work on it. but the teacher is sure no glenn felch. that was my college professor who was the best art teacher EVER. he knew how to tell you what angles were wrong or what you were doing that needed slight adjustment and then everything came out perfect. well, better at least. now when i look at my drawing, i kind of hate it because i made her short and fat and cut her head off but those weren't even the reasons the teacher said it was bad. he said it was rushed and too dark of lines, which first of all, it wasn't rushed. and second of all the only thing i like about it is the dark lines. but i'm going to try and let it go and see if i can learn from him. it's just....challenging.( Read more... )

so for some reason i keep thinking about him since i found that letter. he was so freaking sweet and kind and showed us all around buenos aires and brought us to all the cool hardcore clubs and !@#$ and liked me a freaking lot. i still wonder whatever happened to him. anyway, he looks all tough but he was sweet as candy. oh and pardon my hideous style. it was 1995 for pete's sake.

aw. i just found a love letter well, loveish letter from an argentinian hot boy i had a little fling with when i lived in buenos aires for a semester. i can't really understand it now because i forgot spanish. perhaps i will type it into a translation site. ha.

Itself not if you are going to understand something but in English not God be written want see you again goes in reality I am going to see you again I give you my word as tambien I tell you that me flavor a lot to know you because sos a person barrbara and never I am going to forget you, "we pass very good together moments although not statute so many like we hubieramos beloved" this is not an adios if Not a to as soon as hard 8 months no longer uo remains continue being like sos that is going to go you well and we see us quick. I want you much a large kiss. not sos bad ok.

so far like 8 people have told me they were coming over to buy my furniture i'm selling on craigslist, and they all blew me off. so i reposted and three more are coming tonight. i hope. come, people. i need your dough.

i am an office basketball star. the maid put the garbage can on the other side of my office and i keep being too lazy to bring it near my desk so i keep throwing things into it 6 feet away and i've made every single basket. excpet one, but it was a case of throwing two things at once and one didn't go in.

i ate a shitload of blueberries this morning.

i went to the verizon store to get a new contract today and the guy waiting on me was such an uber-douche rude dick that i actually walked out of the store, and i think i might switch to at&t after all. i guess i'll just have no cell phone for a few days while i decide. scary. i was thinking maybe i should just get at&t but not the iphone, and see how i like it...i can always upgrade to the iphone later.

this weekend we're playing in some godforsaken suburb and then next weekend is FREAKING THUNDER LAKE. it's been so long since i've been there that i swear i'm just a limp little wispy shade of my true self right now. i might need to go for a few days longer than the weekend. yes i think that might just be the ticket.

ugh.

my mom just called me crying as they were pulling away from my childhood home for the last time.

i think i might not get one after all and stay on verizon.

hmm. my contract is up saturday on my cell phone and i really wanted to get an iphone...but now i'm not so sure, because the monthly plan is so expensive...AND they don't come out until july 11th. so i'd have to get a temporary phone in the meantime. so maybe i'll just switch to at&t when my verizon contract is up so that i can eventually get an iphone, just not right away. does anyone have one already? do they rule?